Spinraza is remarkably expensive. I’ve seen $125,000 per shot. I’ll need four “loading” doses. The first three every two weeks on a strict schedule. The fourth shot a month after the third. Then I need to take a shot every three months for the rest of my life.
Because of the cost and the lack of data for older folk there has been quite a bit of conflict around whether insurance companies will cover the drug, especially Medicare. The trouble with Medicare is that they will not pre-approve any treatment. They expect hospitals to provide the treatment and then bill Medicare and Medicare will then tell them what they will reimburse. This has stopped hospitals from trying the drug on adults who are covered by Medicare (like me). Fortunately for me, Stanford’s neuromuscular clinic has decided to go ahead and treat one adult with Medicare to see about reimbursements. Somehow, I have been chosen to be that one person. I also have Medi-Cal (called Medicaid in the rest of the United States). Medi-Cal will not be a primary insurance for an individual unless it’s the only insurance an individual has. However, they will cover what Medicare won’t cover. So I should be financially okay.
The process has me conflicted emotionally. I’ve spent my entire life as an advocate for people with disabilities. Advocated and spoken on behalf of people with disabilities telling the general population my life is fine the way it is. I am a complete, valuable human being who enjoys life. My life is not less because of my disability it is in many cases a source of pride. I have learned so much because of my disability. It has made me aware and sensitive to important things that I’m not sure I would’ve been without my life experience. I feel slightly traitorous in my acquiring the treatment. I don’t want people to think that I don’t value the life I have because I’m getting a treatment that might improve my strength.
I’m also scared of the lumbar puncture. I don’t want my fear to be the reason I don’t get treatment. I’m also not quite sure how to feel about any of it. It has never occurred to me that there would ever be a treatment for my disability largely because it’s considered relatively rare. Even though I will be getting Spinraza, I still don’t know how to feel about it, about me, or what this means to the core of my advocacy. I’m hoping clarity will come, but it hasn’t yet.
I hope that communicates my conflicted feelings about what I hope will be a beneficial experience. Tomorrow, 16 June at around 9 AM I will be getting my first Spinraza shot in Palo Alto at the Stanford neurological clinic. I assume things will go well. I’m told, I may not feel any difference for a while. Some adults with SMA have felt improvement. I hope I’m one of them. Anyway, those who know me and care about me do what you feel comfortable doing to support me. My religious/spiritual feelings are complicated. But I feel like supportive thoughts or prayers can’t hurt and may help. I’ll try following up after Friday. Thank you all!